16th June 2013

16^th June 2013 – 12.01 am

                Almost the seventh day here.friends are supeerrrr awesome.still, I just can’t accept that I’m not an asperian anymore TT_TT my friend said that our number have deceased to 70 members, soo sad.i wonder if he is still one of them.well, if he went to uitm Palam,then he’ll meet my friend, which I considered as his non-relative twin.heheh I remembered last time I actually did impossibly CRIED because I thought he has moved from upm.seriously, I never cried for a lad before, not even a single drop of tear!and I really used to think it’s absurd to cry for a guy who have nothing to do with us, even if we like him or whatsoever.i used to watch my bestfriend cried for a guy who she had crush on and I think THAT was just a small thing, nothing big,  not important and not worth it to cry for.but then, I realized I was totally wrong -__-‘’ you see, when I heard the wrong information, about him leaving the campus I just had this weird feeling.a sudden urge of a wave of sadness.it feels like losing something very important.i cried a lot, and THAT to me, is beyond logic.duh!i’ve never met him before, let alone talking to him and he didn’t even aware of my existence!so why the hell did I cried for him??Seriously silly~I was like,feeling sad for days, trying to accept this loss.but then~~lalala ^^ I don’t know…it was like, miracle?i was on the bus,and there he was, waiting for the bus at the bus stop!it was the first time we board the same bus ^^ happiness overflowing~it turn out to be that he didn’t move.an he was there on the second sem.but then, thing turn it’s way around.i was the one who left.darn it.my days before was like-everyday is a MUST-see-him day.but then now, my days are filled with memories only.sigh~but hey, I agreed that he will be only memories.so…stick to the plan!still,If I could just say this to him ‘’god!you’re one an amazing guy.you made me become a really good tear-jerker.you’re the first guy that  I cried for.congrats!’’ then walk away like a cool guy.hahah that’ll never going to happen -__- so then, night night ^^