Anonimity-About me #1

5th August 2013

i like being anonymous online.that's all.i have this blog-my own special space for me to rewind everything ever happened to me in words.but then, seriously i don't want my friends to know about the existence of my blog.that's why before i used to write 'my friend', 'university z' and whatsoever.then now i realize that what's the point of hiding all that??they will never found this page and if they ever do, there is only a slight possibility that they will  know that it was me writing all these..sheesh...so then...that's all.i like being anonymous online.done!

15th July 2013

15^th July 2013 – 1.10 am

                It’s RAMADHAN!!!yay~^^ soo excited, really.but seriously, sad too coz I didn’t get to spent my first ramadhan at home (sob sob) T_T anyway, breaking fast with such a feast today!!!> ◡ < yummy!had to spend most of the day completing my bio lab report and now,,, taadahhh~ it’s DONE!yohohoho!gonna read the comics now!tanoshiiii~~^^ hey, you know what…?my friend just told me that, ‘’when we like someone but that person doesn’t know that, and we die with that secret feeling, we will die as a mujahid/mujahidah’’ and wow!i didn’t know that!IF I die and I still like that ColdEyes fella, I’ll be a mujahidah!WOW!teeheeeheee…but who knows?i might like someone else one day.but hey, I don’t want that to happen actually.i want to remember him, though it’s meaningless.yada yada yada who cares???i like him to the extend that I think I’ll never find someone better than him and I can’t even look up to any other man…well, except KeySHINee teeheehee^^ so~gotta go making myself busy with the comics!popye~!!!!!!!!

2nd July 2013

2^nd July 2013 – 12.05 am

                Almost late for my chemy class!yikes!!!>o< thank god i went into the class 1 second before my lect did!seriously...went to use the library’s internet for the first time.to do my chemy project.damn it the boys in my group!!!they made US did the whole work!!!i’m pissssseeeedddd offff now!!!!!haiyaaaaa!!!!!!i’d rather have Ayie as my group partner than those guys!sheeesshhh...REALLY GOTTA CLAIM THAT 60$ FROM THE RPINTING!!!oh hey,,,you know what?this evening...my brother...took my precious away!!!TT^TT he took the laptop to do his job.so now i’m borrowing my friend’s laptop.uhuhuh act i don’t really mind.teeheehee hope he’ll get lots of income with that lappie ^^ so that he’ll treat me pizza,,,nando,,,,domino,,,bigAppless,,,,movie,,,teppanyaki,,,,crepes,,,and LOTSA ROCKY!!!!!!yay~kekeke i just came back from my first MEDCY meeting.seriously, my HeadPost was really funky!^^ though he doesn’t seem like one who will do his work wholeheartedly.hm...sheessshh WHAT if he made me do all the work?just like those two sloth!!!>0< i’ll kick him to amazon!!!let him live with the crocodile!!!kekekee oh hey!you see, i just SAW her!i mean,,,that sis, senior who they said had mental illness.i mean,,,i thought that story was just a rumour and nobody live in that room.but hey, i DID saw her!O-M-G!scary enough.seriously!i’ve saw her lotsa times befoe but i’ve nvr thought that it was really HER!huhuhuh k now gotta go.i have class on 8 tomorrow.don’t wanna go late tomorrow -____- popye3 ^^

1st July 2013

1^st July 2013 – 12.46 am

                O-M-G!how dare he!!!he’s married!!!!!!!!(fuuuuuhhhhh…..!!!!)I mean…not ‘him’, but my friend’s friend.and I called my friend just now.she cried a whole lot!stupid, silly, damn jerk!he knew already that my friend reaaaaalllllly loves him so why did he sent her a message about his marriage???darn it!what’s the point of apologizing now?makes her hurts more.’guys’-never trust ‘em.you see…this man,the my friend love,was once a guy that I really fond of.and I thought he WAS the one for my friend.i really trusted him and sees him different from other jerks.but then,silly me, he IS THE SAME AS THE JERKS OUT THERE.he chased after her and when he don’t love her anymore he just abandoned her when she has started to fall in love with him.WHAT THE…??i mean…what more can I trust from a man?IF a guy like him-that I considered to be like fallen angel-can make my friend reallllly heartbroken like that…LET ALONE the others who are at first worse than him.geezzz…i like ‘him’.not because of I think I can trust him.never.i’m glad that we never really had a real conversation before.just like this, I don’t have to trust him in order to like him.i’m afraid, scared that when I trust a man, fall in love with him, told him, and then somehow he disappoint me, taking my faith away from him, I can’t imagine how heartbroken I will be, and how hurt is that.i’m afraid that if I told a guy that I like him, then we had a relationship, then I find out that he doesn’t really love me, I will seriously, definitely, CRACKS.so…I think it’s better like this.liking someone but he never know about it.so that he can never hurt me intentionally.kekeke kk gtg now.sleepy~have classes tomorrow and got lotsa homework I didn’t finish yet.uhuhuhuhuh night night ^^

30th June 2013

30^th June 2013 – 9.15 am

                FIRST OUTING WITH WHOLE DORM MATES!!!MidV yay~aweeeesooomeeee…!!!teeheehee though I wasn’t in the right mood coz I left my Corby and earphone at the room…shheeesssh spoiler.but then, we had a great time tough.we ate at the KennyRogers!yummy~~I ordered noodles meal; the wantan mee slurppp they had the fiesta set.reallyyyyyy daebakkkk d(>.<)b kekekeke my friends bought a whole lotsa things and they claimed that their meals for 2 month will be Maggie only.kekeke oh hey, watched football tonight!final match Kelantan vs Johor.seriously!we won!!!!!!!!!go Kelantan GO!!!!wooohooooo~you know what?listening the some songs in my playlist made me remind of him.and remembering him brings me lotsa emotions.felt happy but sad at the same time.sheessshh ok now gtg…HarvestMoon time!!^^

29th June 2013

29^th June 2013 – 12.50 am

                Late to class AGAIN!teeeheehee I think I just not meant to go early to class.kekeke anyway, guess what??? >.< one of my dorm mates also went to WarGames too!!!!!!!!woohooo~ o(≧o≦)o just the same!i mean,,,we both had the raft thing,the war,the race and the best one is her facilitator is the same as mine~Polo!!!yay~so…what is a WarGame actually?literally, it is an outdoor activity which consists of many activities!teeheehee well, for me, it is a 3 days and two nights camping for me to watch him 24:7 hehehe I’ll make a special note about WarGames next time.i went to submit my PeersClub form today and seriously, the senior was really sporting!!!he reminds me of that lab partner of mine.kekeke yup!both of them reallllly talk much.oh hey, you know what?DARN IT!i HAD to register my course back!you think it is easy to register???NO WAY, LIKE HELL!had to go to multipurpose lab and sometimes they change the venue and sometimes we can’t enter!yeah, reg online but they don’t provide us any WiFi!!!what the…!!!better solve this out fast, sheessshhh…annoying!oh well, TONIGHT IS AWESOMEEE!!1 >.< the whole dorm wore masks and took pictures.seriously, we look like zombies wearing scarf!kekekeke we had conversations about guys and…stories about guys who cheated on them.you see, this is why I can’t trust those species.i’ve heard lots of stories about man who hurt my friends, even my best friends!they looked reallllyyy hurt, and I don’t want to experience those disappointment and hurt.i’m scared that I can’t handle the pain.so for me, better being single and not having any affair.i’ve had crush on lots of guys before, but never fall in love.somehow, this time, about him, I’m confused.but hey, if I really love him, I would be glad coz he has gone away and I won’t fall in love with another guy.so, when I fall in love, I fall hard.that’s why I think the guys I’ve met, I see them as nothing.beause he is better at everything (in my opinion laaaa).at the same time, I’ll never gonna meet him again so we won’t have any affair.so, all in all…I will never have any relationship with him and I’ll never fall for another guy after this.so, my heart is in a safe state!^^ okay now…gtg …sleep sleep coz tomorrow we all are going to MidV!!!!!yay~night night!

27th June 2013 - part 2!^^

27^th June 2013 – 11.41 pm

                Hey yo~guess what’s different tonight?yeah~I type this before 12 am!!!daeebak…dub=h!act I’m seriously tired today.worn out already.i’m ging to get my sleep now!i’ve registered my course today…dang.it’s so hard here, even just to register my course.nothing really special happened today.but hey, my voice is recovering.at least people understand what’s I’m saying now.teeeheeehee well…you see…currently the group photography session is held at cfs.so…there were blazers, props and groups having their picts taken.just like usual…I think of him.remember that I went to upm before?i went to my friend’s room.she’s his ex-classmate, they both were in Group3 during the first sem…so~our batch (SecondGenOfAsper) had our group photography shooting too.i had mine but of course, he wasn’t in the picture because we were not in the same group on the first sem.BUT my friend DID.so~I accidently saw her group picture and saw him there.that pic of him that I showed before, that was from her group picture ehehe.he smiled in most of the pictures ^^ oh he looks so cute, seriously!it was the kind of cute that you want to keep for yourself!teeheehee anyway, he wears black shirt, white tie, black slack, black shoes and blazer!darn it, he looked awesome even in formal attire -__- act, I just realized that my group and his group took the photos on the same day!my batch leader even asked for my blazer that day kekeke.that means maybe he was nearby too~saaa naa~okay,enough with my annoying daydreaming.uhuhu hey, it was raining today.and for the first time in 5-6 days I saw the sunlight, and clouds, and the sky.time to bid farewell to the haze!^^ but hey, even it was raining today I didn’t see even a single soul who carried an umbrella.not even sisters!let alone the brothers!-__- hm…if he was here, he would be the first one who had an umbrella ^^ I know, I used to call him Mr.Umbrella.keh keh keh who wouldn’t??not just during rainy days, he even used his umbrella during hot days!i mean, he’s the only guy that I’ve ever met that used an umbrella so…consistently like that teeheehee but THAT really made him special, really.hard to find a guy who use umbrella nowadays.sheeessshh that’s why I said,,,a guy likehim is impossible to find.coz he’s like, one in a million yeah~okat now.gtg coz I’m really tired + worn out + sleepy.yada~

27th June 2013

27^th June 2013 – 1.04 am

                I DREAMT OF HIM!!!OMG!OMG!OMG!i REALLY dreamt of him last night!!!i don’t remember what that dream was all about but we were at a beach.he was looking at me the whole time~^^ teeheehee excited+overjoyed.you see, I used to heard that when we dream about someone it means that he/she is missing us!but then, it contradict to my logic.if I dream about someone doesn’t it means that I’m the one who’s missing that person?ok, screw all that.i don’t want to believe that he’s missing me.i mean, he BARELY know me, remember?i don’t think he even knows my name.sheessshh….you know what?i’m currently own a status of a pauper.duh!my purse have at most rm4 and my bank is like desert!i mean, only few money is left in the bank.goodbye food~ TT__TT Appa said that my aunt will bank in the money maybe tomorrow,,,or the next Sunday TT__TT goodbye the things to buy~ oh yeah!remember the MEDCY thing??o-m-g!seriously!can’t believe my luck!i was about to NOT GOING to the AnnualGrandMeeting even tough I’m a nominee to vote for.but then when we heard that attendance is compulsory I dragged my feet there and upon reaching I had to came back to mahallah to change the ‘candidate suit’.sheesshhh.still, the fun part is that I just laid there on the floor while my two other friends ironed my cloth for me teeheehee but then I went up the stage and blah blah blah yada yada yada, stating out my not-so-like manifesto.but then, guess what?i DID got a majority vote!!!i guess sympathy over my voice is overflowing, maybe.darn it.winning over sympathy is NOT my style.anyway, I got this place –HeadAsst.ofSportandRecreation.daebakkk.i just had the information than being the committee for this is veeerryy busy, even tough it was just during when there is event.’nice’~my schedule is packed already and I busied myself with THIS???okay nevermind.i’ll accept the challenge.by the end of the sem I’ll said ‘MISSION ACOMPLISHED!’ teeheehee kay now gotta go and study lab report! Popye~

26th June 2013

26^th June 2013 – 12.45 am

                OMG!!!back to my old self-AGAIN!!!what I mean is…I started to attend class late, just like I did before at upm.daeebaaaaakkk d(>.<)b oh well…what can I do.me and the time will never match.but hey, thanks god to that I get to know this annoying guy who later became my lab partner.seriously!of all the people, why him???still, I’m glad he’s my lab partner.coz he’s super smart!but I don’t think he felt the same way kekeke.coz according to HIM himself,,,I’m one lazy partner (whoopsiee).teeheehehe I just get to do only one lab experiment with him before I moved away from upm.nevermind that, he can get himself a new, MORE HARDWORKING PARTNER, and maybe a s brilliant as him.id really care.duh!but hey, know what?my room mate, Syuk used to be his schoolmate!!!OMG!!!how small the world is???anyway, even though he’s one annoying fella, I still do respect him.he can be a great pillar to his family, I think.so~all the best for him!Mr.Smartie…-___- back to me going late to class!i referred to the wrong schedule this morning!i went to the class and when I reached there then I realized that I was wrong!silly!thank god the lecture didn’t start yet.hm…back in upm…I used to go to class reallllyy late-LOTS OF TIMES!!!you see, sometimes I woke up really early but then I dawdled A LOT!especially in the bathroom.then I ended up missing the bus teeheehee.still, there will be one day from all the days that I’ve been late to class that I’ll never forget.the first day of the second sem ^^ you see, after the first sem, the groups have been reduced from five to three.and of course, streaming was done.i don’t have WiFi at my house, so~I don’t really know who’s my classmates but I know which my group is.but then before I really hoped that I will not be in the same group with him.so~i was in the group 1 ^^ the first lecture was Umi’s class-the BIO class.so, I was kinda like…late for 15 minutes.so I entered the class boldly.but then, I was like…stunned!coz I saw him, sitting just right over there, listening to the lecture!OMG!i was like, my body was moving towards my seat but my mind was totally blank!seriously!i was like…’’WHY~~~~!!!!!’’ somehow, I realized now that being in the same group with him is the best thing that could ever happened.coz I get to meet him a lot…as right now we are separated and I’ll never see him again.THAT was the only time that I can see him.imagine that he is in another group.i’ll never get the chance to see him in class and secretly stalking him more teeheehee.oh boy, I saw a brother with red hair, just like him.sheeessshh I kept reminding him a lot nowadays.hm…and hey!remember about the MEDCY thing???seriously, can’t believe that I HAD to make my manifesto tomorrow!!!i don’t get it!i have a sore throat and barely can answer their questions.but hey, I was a nominee of the committee???did they chose me out of sympathy?for having a sore throat??but then, if they really pity me they should not make me stand tomorrow to give some speech that I don’t even know that my voice will tolerate.kua kua kua…anyway all the best for me.i don’t really hope to be a committee act.but then, I’ll remember that my mom used to say…’’try’’.so I’ll try and whatever happened to the result-IDC.teeheeeheeeeee night night gonna sleep now ^^ (missing him a lot~haiyaaaaaaaaa)

25th June 2013

25^th June 2013 – 1.26 am

                Today is HOLIDAY~!!!!!^^ daebakkkk!!! d(>▽<)b went back to sleep after subh prayer and woke up again at…guess what; 12.50 am!!!what a sloth!anyway, had my MEDCY interview today with this voice.it went okay laaaaa…they didn’t ask about the current issues of sport.thank god!although I really want to talk about the incoming SUKMA at upm.sheeeessshh…oh yeah!forgot to mention I had a fast today~wooohooo!!!great job!LuffySara!you fast during HOLIDAY!!!wow~break fast with Nasi Ayam which we bought at KhadijahCafe…yummy~Jamaah prayer and recited Yaasiin 3 times ^^ hm…just heard things…like scary things happened at nearby dorm.thank god didn’t happen here.Please protect us o Allah…this morn’ my mom calls and know about my voice condition.teeheeehee she asked me to buy dequadin or strepsils.on the way, mom~I forgot to buy since I fast today.hm…this morning,,,you see,,,I listened to some songs.and they reminds me of him.darn it!if it was just remembering I;m fine with it but these damn tears came out too??!seriously!how many times I’ve cried for him?i lost count.am I sad that he had left upm?yeah, maybe I do, coz that means we’ll never ever ever meet again.but hey, I should be thankful that if I was still there, I will be more heartbroken, ryt?i guess so…coz most of the memories happened there.but it’s okay if I’ll never going to meet him again.coz I expect nothing from him.yeah~I don’t want me and him together.coz I’m afraid that I’ll never fit him and ended up heartbroken damn severely.so the best thing is to hope that he’ll be with the best girl for him.even if she’s my very own friend.you see, I have this friend…who is reaalllllly close to him.and I just had a knack that he might…may…or definitely like her.well, she’s pretty and nice, briliant, good future housewife.what more to expect?so, just like in the old song, if this really happens, I’ll sing and dance all day long on his wedding day ^^ it is better to be heartbroken like this than being heartbroken by watching him suffering and unhappy living with me.

~when it’s my prince’s wedding

~and the day is full of colors

~I’ll dance to my heart content

~hey yo! teehee

24th June 2013 - Sayonara~Mr.Coldeye

24^th June 2013 – 12.25 am

                Oerimmariya…UPM-ssi…^^ I’m really happy to be there again!today was my first outing with my dormmates~we went to MidV,UPM and TheMines.i guess,I was a very successful tour-guider today!yay~ you see,,,I’m at mostly glad that I DID went to UPM today…remember last night I said about wanting to meet him?-or at least walk on the same ground as him.so hey, it didn’t turn out as I expected…instead, I just get myself a news...which I used to hear a not too long time ago. my friend said that he had moved from UPM TT_TT you know, when I was in my first sem in UPM, she said the same thing.coz I went late to class that morning, then suddenly I saw him climbing the stairs of my college.so I asked her why he didn’t go to class that day.she said ‘’idk…he moved away…maybe…’’ so…me, who thought it was true unexpectedly felt a heartbreak.well, act on THAT very day was my friend’s last day on UPM.i cried for her too, but then I realized that I cried for him more than I do for her.sheeessshhh…I was gloomy for almost a whole week.and everytime I mentioned about him to my friend I would cry (tear-jerker!!!) seriously, this is the first time I cried for a real boy!i mean…before I used to cry for an anime character, kpop idol, and such people-people who like, living in another world.but then this time, I did something that I used to consider as ‘’why the fuss to cry over a boy?he’s nothing but someone who had nothing to do with you, after all’’ well, I had that question in mind coz my friend used to cry in front of my very own eyes because of a boy who she love chose another girl when she had done lots of things to him.but hey!as for me-at that time I barely know him, and he had no idea of my existence at all!but I cried because of him???how high is the level of illogical for this matter??-___- so...after that whole week…miracle(?) occurred!!!it turns out that the news was wrong!you see, I was taking the bus back to my college…with my friend at my next seat, and my ears stuffed with earphones, playing the song ‘’I hope-FTisland’’.then, when the bus stopped at bus stop, my eyes widen with the presence of the one who made me cried for a whole week!with that song still playing, I excitedly and accidently hurt my friend just to show her that he was STILL THERE!she, of course was happy too, for me, though in pain teeheehee ^^ well, that was the first time we board the same bus ^^ but then, today…I heard the same news for the second time. only the difference was that this time this news is a valid true one.he IS not an official Asper anymore, just like me.he just left UPM without any notice.just like what I did to my room mate.after each of my stuff was moved to my brother’s house and my place was empty, I told her that I had moved from UPM.as for him…his room mate also experience the same thing that my room mate did.he just left without a note.when his room mate went to his room, his properties and place was clean, nothing left.she said that he will be studying oversea, medic course…SO…I was actually happy for him.but then, I was sad too, knowing that we will be (MORE) further away from each other.though he never know me.but hey, I guess our story was just like this.i was an unimportant cameo in his life-story but in contra, he is an important cameo in my life story.we met in different group at first, then placed into the same group, and finally separate to our own path, that I guess will never connect us.just like this;

Well, we’ve taken our own path now.and there will NO way that I will ever get to contact him.so…he will forever remain as memories~even tough I AM sad, I’m glad that I know he is not there anymore.at least I know that he will be leaving this country someday.i really DO hope the best for him!^^ Dear Allah, please DO protect him wherever he is now or afterwards and avoid him from doing unpleasant things! Sincerely – ‘’me’’ (︶◡︶) i saw his room mate before going to TheMines today.but you know me~in this world there are only a few boys that I’m not shy of.so I just watched him from a distance and walked away.teeheehee boy!today’s piece is a hella long one!but then, I want to remember this memories forever.i’m scared that if I didn’t write this, I’ll eventually  forget about it.

23rd June 2013

23^rd June 2013 – 3.39 am

                My today’s ‘good morning’ was on 11 am!!!teeheehee of course I was damn tired yesterday.we had a booorrriiiing HelloMedcy briefing and went back to dorm at late night.sheessh…know what?i woke up today with an sexy voice~yeah…I had a sore throat…a reaaaallllly baaaaaad sore throat!have been coughing and sneezing all day long!not to mention the piles of tissues I’ve used for my running nose!a whole box is finished by one day!the vcold virus infected my whole dorm mates and we sickly+desperately went to the clinic to get some cure.but then!the…clinic…was…CLOSED!!!!WHAT THE…???so we went back, bought some 100plus and laid down like a person with severe illness.-__- watched ‘citizenDog’ today.seriously illogical yet funny ^^ then we had some pizzas!!!! ^^ yummy!!!only rm15 for a whole box of large slices of pizzas!!!yumbolicious!!!oh yeah,,,we had a plan to go to the library this night but alas!it was closed also!dang!nevermind that, we spent our night today cleaning up the room so that it looks more like a lady’s room teehee ^^ and here come the serious fun part!we watched ‘CrazyLittleThingCalledLove’ ~~p’shone kaaaaaaa~^^ homaigosh!how can a man be so good looking??!!!ok then , you know why we ended up sleeping at almost 4 o’clock in the morning.i need to get my sleep now coz tomorrow (technically today) I want to visit my dear UPM!!!weeeeheeee~ even though the chances of me meeting him is like…0.5%...so what?at least I’m walking on the same ground!^^ dakara ima~ai ni yuku~sou kimetan da~ ^^ so…p0pye!don’t  want to be late for tomorrow!!!

22nd June 2013

22^nd June 2013 – 12.37 am

                Nothing really good actually happened today.it’ just that, my whole dorm mate fell ill…~-__- I even had to put a box of tissue on the bed.seriously, this is quite a bad cold.feel like dizzy, ill, sick, in other words ‘’just wanna rest all day’’!somehow, I the midst of hardship due to cold we still get to bring ourselves to the AliBistro food court.we had chickenchop,,,nasi goring daging masak merah and yee mee sizzling!!!^^ though they weren’t realllly good still there are edible ^^ yee mee sizzling is tasty actually!ok then need to go to bed now…yada

21st June 2013

21^st June 2013 – 12.12 am

                Fine!take ALL my money if you want!!!!!!!!fuuuuuuuuhhhh...!!!ok……………………………relax…I’ve spent 29+40=rm69 today for some books.my lecturers won’t let us photocopy the textbook.i can’t understand why?!the original book; the pages; are all in white, black and grey!!!so what’s wrong with photocopying it??!!!gosh this place is freakin’ price tag!!!hey, yesterday’s my sister’s bday and I can’t believe that I forget it!!but I still get to wish her bday (thank god) ON THE LAST MINUTE; 2 HOURS BEFORE THE DAY ENDS!!!o_O I had my first FIM class today…I sat on the right side of the hall.you see, I kept looking at this one empty seat, and imagining that he was sitting there, surfing the YouTube. I remember that he will always sit at the same corner at any BK’s room.somehow, at PASP rooms he will sit at the left side of the room, the seat closest to the wall.for the whole 1 hour (plus minus) I was dreaming about sitting in the same class with him.there were times that I will sit in front of him and there were times that he will sit in front of me.even if we were so close, it felt so far.sheeeeeshhh…I just can’t seem to understand what’s playing inside his mind.that’s why I called him ‘my mysterious brother’ in front of my friends ^^ oh yeah!now I know that he’s a metro sexual type of guy!i guess that’s why I was affected towards him-Cause being metro sexual made him appear different from others.and I just LOVE things that are different from others ^^ here you can only find the typical type of guy…-_- darn it.you see, when the sun is scorching hot he will wear the umbrella, unlike some other guys…HERE,,,nobody…I repeat…NOBODY use an umbrella when the day is hot.i don’t think using an umbrella make him looks fag.he looks DIFFERENT! =) I just can’t say that ‘’nevermind I’ll find someone like you’’ because I know that there will be no one like him.(tsk tsk) okay now I’ve got an early classs tomorrow so i need to call this a day. Popye!

20th June 2013

20^th June 2013 – 12.31 Am

                I troubled my parents again.they had to bank in money for me…so that I can pay this price tag campus.darn!you know what?everything here, EVERYTHING you need to buy and can’t recycle from your senior or even photocopy it.sheeesssh.they think I’m one big rich fella daughter wat?and things they sell at the small shop; you can find the exactly same thing with a lot more cheaper price at other market!dang!not to mention the cloth that we had to buy.simple pattern,heat-trap fabric and you can’t even wear it to classes!what’s the point of buying???-__- hm…my chemistry project discussion start today.and it wasn’t very successful, I guess…nevermind that.but there’s something I’m not really pleasant about. You see, this whole thing about this project will require us the help from UncelGoogle but then the registration of WiFi for new intake student is currenly unavailable.so tell me where the heck are we going the search the information from????DO NOT even mention the library!that place is a disaster!!!books are put everywhere,I mean not at the systematic place to be put too.sheesssh…I guess just to find one single book is like finding needle in haystack!will take YEARS to find the information!ok..ok…relax…keep calm and finish this foundation.i can do it aja aja fighting~I have early class tomorrow.guess I need to call it a day…(yawn~) by the way,I rewind a lot of memories of me at the WarGame camp…and I kinda want to meet him right now…TT_TT kk sweet dream goodnight!

19th June 2013

19^th June 2013 – 12.14 am

                          BIG NEWS!MY FRIEND IS ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>_< DAEBAKKKK!!!seriously, I saw her talking to the phone secretly but I’ve never ever thought that it would be her fiancée!!!guess I’m really stupid about things like this eh?anyway soooo happy~so niiiceee~to be  engaged…wish them the best and I’ll pray for her happiness d(>_<) so hey, bursary came today for a briefing and hopefully I’m going to get a lot of money at the nearest time!!!i’m short of money right now TT_TT feels like finding myself a sugar daddy haha (yuck) first class of Arabic Language.dang!the Ustaz kept speaking in Arabic!thank god I can still catch up one, two words.who knows next time I will be totally clueless about what he’s saying.huhuu you know what???UIAM-this place is a PRICE TAG CAMPUS!i need to spend a lot for Arabic class only, not to mention other classes which require me to buy the text book which cost me almost rm100 for each subject!silly!i can’t use my previous text book!what a total WASTE!and they taught us not to waste things!how ‘logic’ and ‘sensible’!it’s a burden to ask money from my parents TT_TT finance at home is not as nice as others…so…it made  me feel bad everytime I told them that I have no money.(tsk tsk) I’ve got my chemy project group today and the only two boys in my class are in the same group.this reaaaalllly reminds me of that annoying Ayie!though I miss him a little =P oh yeah, I watched the last part of 20^th century boy and the face of this kid is similar to ‘him’.what differs that he still have this baby fat at his cheek, and that made him appears really cute!^^ and his hair is shorter too…gee…I miss him a lot.lalala~

18th June 2013

18^th June 2013 – 12.56 am

                Today was RIDICULOUS!!!you know what?they pasted our schedule at 8+ am and expect us to present at the 9 o’clock class!of course, if they gave each of us a schedule, it’s fine but hey, in a small room, only one sheet of paper is provided for hundreds of us to see!HUNDREDS!!!and then we need to find the class venue.how do they expect us today.o get there in time???most of us missed our first class today.dang!then one more,there are classes that end at this particular time and then another class start at that time too!what more, the class venue is not very close to the previous class venue.of course we needed some time to walk there!how sT***d!anyway, this morning I saw someone, wearing black long sleeved shirt with the sleeves folded to the elbow, black leather shoes…not very tall…and that guy reminds me of him TT_TT I keep missing him nowadays.is it a wrong thing to do?whatever, I don’t care. =P so hey…I’ve decided to take the 1 year programme…I know, somehow in the future I’ll never get to do things that I LOVE to do.fashion,comp games,dramas+reality shows,drawing…4.0-if I want to get THAT I must kick my ass very hard!study study…TT_TT i’ll try my best to steal some times for some pleasures…-___-‘’

17th June 2013

17^th June 2013 – 12.07 am

                Can’t believe I survived almost a week here!anyway, today is my first outing since I moved to cfs.went to midvalley JUST to buy that darn pricey calculator.gonna need it for my math subjects.i miss my old calculator, the one I used when I was an asper TT^TT anyway, this new calculator is now my new buddy.gotta take a good care of it.so hey, I’ve been listening to ‘’hitchhiking’’ song a lot lately…coz it reminds me of him (again) -__-‘’ but then, I really hope things turn out that way.to turn back the time when I used to glance at him secretly uhuhuh or maybe both of us go to another dimension of the world.still, that’s just another silly fantasy of mine.even if only both of us were in the same dimension, what the hell am I going to do with him?he BARELY knows me.duh!okay!change topic!watched ‘’sebenarnya saya isteri dia’’.oh my god!his husband!i mean, sweet, understanding, always brings his wife to vacation, quite a sweet talker- how much more better can a man get to be?? ^^ you see, his wife got an annual dinner and she didn’t know what to buy but then he bought her a really darn good dress!seriously, this kind of man is really rare!he’s not THAT cute but…his attitude turn in into an interesting fella.and hey, he looks kinda good in pink!^^ here is one selfthought ‘’guys who wear pink are nice but those who looks cool in one are awesomeee!!!^^” like Key appa, right?key is a pinkaholic!and that’s one of the reasons why I am Keyaholic teeheehe okay then, see ya next time!

16th June 2013

16^th June 2013 – 12.01 am

                Almost the seventh day here.friends are supeerrrr awesome.still, I just can’t accept that I’m not an asperian anymore TT_TT my friend said that our number have deceased to 70 members, soo sad.i wonder if he is still one of them.well, if he went to uitm Palam,then he’ll meet my friend, which I considered as his non-relative twin.heheh I remembered last time I actually did impossibly CRIED because I thought he has moved from upm.seriously, I never cried for a lad before, not even a single drop of tear!and I really used to think it’s absurd to cry for a guy who have nothing to do with us, even if we like him or whatsoever.i used to watch my bestfriend cried for a guy who she had crush on and I think THAT was just a small thing, nothing big,  not important and not worth it to cry for.but then, I realized I was totally wrong -__-‘’ you see, when I heard the wrong information, about him leaving the campus I just had this weird feeling.a sudden urge of a wave of sadness.it feels like losing something very important.i cried a lot, and THAT to me, is beyond logic.duh!i’ve never met him before, let alone talking to him and he didn’t even aware of my existence!so why the hell did I cried for him??Seriously silly~I was like,feeling sad for days, trying to accept this loss.but then~~lalala ^^ I don’t know…it was like, miracle?i was on the bus,and there he was, waiting for the bus at the bus stop!it was the first time we board the same bus ^^ happiness overflowing~it turn out to be that he didn’t move.an he was there on the second sem.but then, thing turn it’s way around.i was the one who left.darn it.my days before was like-everyday is a MUST-see-him day.but then now, my days are filled with memories only.sigh~but hey, I agreed that he will be only memories.so…stick to the plan!still,If I could just say this to him ‘’god!you’re one an amazing guy.you made me become a really good tear-jerker.you’re the first guy that  I cried for.congrats!’’ then walk away like a cool guy.hahah that’ll never going to happen -__- so then, night night ^^

15th June 2013

15^th June 2013 – 12.55 am

                Registered!my iium portal is registered.for some reasons, just so that I don’t really hate my iium portal…I made his name to become the password ^^ silly, simple, small thing but it really does make happy seriously. -3- ^.oh my confused heart, please stop missing~~~I’m getting tired already…-__- let’s stick to the first plan!he is a part of the memory!!!that’s all!our story has reached ‘’the end’’.---------------still…don’t think that I’ll ever get to start a new story.*tsk tsk*you!yes, you!Mr.cold-eyes.i shouldn’t have fallen interested in you at the first place.now I can’t find anyone to replace you.trouble,trouble,trouble~~~
jinjha.neo gateun saram deo eobseo -__- make things really hard now.sheesh still missing him ryt now.it feels like houki booshi!!!i want to be shooting star and fly pass him, just to check how he’s doing ^^ what a serious silly thing to say -_-‘’.anyway,looks like mom told my brother n sister about me crying yesterday.sheesh…made me appear like a 5-year-old to them (darn).nvrmind that, I’m not at loss at anything after all.owh!just got some news.i got exempted in EPT and level 2 in APT.so…1 year or 2 year???confused.

14th June 2013

14^th June 2013 – 1.03 am

                Baaaad day.uh huh, a very baddd day.had a severe headache today, thanks to all the crying things.no big reason.i just stress out,that’s all.STRESS!!!first of all, had to go all the way back to the college just to take two pieces of paper, darn!how uncompromised, that sis.sheeesh.thank god I remembered all the way back.if not, I’ll be stuck here for at least hours.nevermind that, I don’t really blame the sister.but hey, life’s really tough here, seriously.the previous life is just a sweet dream.*sigh* ganbatte me!!!~~go!go!hwaiting!!! me-always daebaakkkk    d(-_-)b    by the way, I really miss him today.thought of him and my mom all the way crying. -____-‘’

13th June 2013

13^th June 2013 - 12.50 am

                So hey…another day went by.nothing much happened today except for sitting around hearing some people talk about things that I don’t really want to know about.BORING~~still, after a whole hours of listening I get lots of time to rest too,,and spent most of it watching SnowWhiteAndTheHuntsman.i did get a nice good sleep after that.and guess what, I had a dream!a long one, too.a little part of it is quite scary but there was a part of that dream that I remember most.i remember him.we sat at the same table and almost had a conversation.sigh~WHY DIDN’T I SAID SOMETHING BACK THEN??!-_-‘’ he wears yellow, the same old shirt.you know, I heard this somewhere that if you dream of someone it means that that person in missing you.but in my case right now, I think the opposite situation is happening and of course it will be definitely impossible for him to miss me!kekeke just a thought of it tickles me.but seriously, I miss him.however,no matter what happen, he will only just forever be a memory, nothing more.-3-.okay!now let me listen to some songs and get to sleep!!!ciao~

11th june 2013

11^th june 2013-11.58 pm

First day of menstruation.STOMACHACHE!!!!!!!not very painful but reaaaally made me suffer though.Soooo…it’s been lots of days after I left dearest UPM (tsk tsk).looks like I’ve left something very important there haiyaaaaaaa…………………..my heart,,,come back hereeeeeee~huhuh it’s okay though.it means that I’m safe here.will never have to secretly stalking someone heheh.after all, I don’t want to repeat all of those things I’ve done there.i mean, there will be none other one like mr.cold eyes.he is one waaaaay unique lad.but then, sadly he NEVER notice me back then (TT_TT b).nvrmind that, I don’t really hope anything will work out between us.he deserves someone waaaaayy better.as for me: forever alone level 48.hahaha anyway, he will always be sweet memories to me ^^ even if he doesn’t know a thing about me =P goodbye,goodbye,goodbye!!!i’m glad that I met you even though you didn’t even look at me on my last day there, jerk! ^^

TimeFliesReallyFast

Anyeong~

SHEESSH...it's been a lotta long time since last time i wrote a post.well, it's all ''thanks'' to the wifi connection at my new campus...SOOOO EXCELLENT THAT U CAN'T EVEN SEE THE CONNECTION  AT THE WNC LIST, LET ALONE CONNECTING TO IT.darn it.nvrmnd that...u see...i left upm already...yeah before i was an asper at upm and now, i am an ex-asper.i'm one of the cfs iium-ian(?).my new campus don't have special name for the student.and we often call each other 'brother' and 'sister'.seriously, i miss upm a lot and this place is a PRICE TAG PLACE!seriously, a pack of maggi is worth rm5.80????i can get a lot less at GIanNTS!or even the small market at my village.owh., u bloodsucker maniac cashier!forget about the price, let's talk about the service.of all the place or kiosk there, the is one place that really maka me piss off!!!the kiosk at ....college.well, better to make it anonymous.the cashiers there,SERIOUSLY look at their arrogant face!AS IF we need them like hell!AS IF we can't live without them!!!sorry to say, but i will be glad if ALL OF YOU cashiers at ....college resign and replace with someone better, whom KNOWS HOW TO SMILE.this situation is different from my college.you see, at my college the cashiers are like...''customers first!'' kind of person.the security aunt also (this woman work also at ....college)!WHY...we (me and my friend) just asked her a simple question,,,wait, we didn't even get to ask her then she scolded us like we were some sort of criminals or what?!!!be considerate laaaa aunty,,, we want to ask question not money from u..haiyaaa~sheeshh..........oh yeah...i've thought about it, and i guess since i don't have permanent internet connection,, and i have a lot of things to write and put 'em in my other world...so i guess here's the plan...i write 'em first and post them alltogether when i have the connection.DONE!k now, gotta go and make my self busy with all the posting ^^