Au Revoir, semester 1 =) loads of things happened this past
4 months. From the beginning, I never thought that I would end up studying
here…in fact my parents agreed on letting me to come here about two weeks
before the signing up for the first sem here. 4 months just went away and here
I am! Don’t think I’m ready for second sem. Well, most of my batch mates have
gone for good (I don’t mean they died- they left the university, probably w8ing
for another offer).
Last day of the first sem, he was on the same bus. To be
honest, thanks to exam week I get to see him almost 7 days in a week. But then,
it happens to ‘’corrodes’’ my attraction towards him. What I meant is, you
see…on the first second or third day of examination I used to sit at least 2 or
3 meters away from him before entering the exam hall…and I would say the
happiest moment on the day of Algebra test (nightmare) was when he was standing
just an inch away from me! Heaven, finally! Hehehe but then after that I never
really cared. I just sit everywhere I want. Then I thought, “Maybe I don’t have
this weird feeling about him anymore”. End up on the same bus on the last day
is also not as exiting as the first time.
Still, for someone that I have been stalking for at least 3
months…my heart won’t let me to erase him that easily =) last time I saw him on
the last day of first sem, he went to buy ice cream and went away on a black
car. I thought I was tired of him but my heart shrunk when he went inside that
car. Gosh I can never understand this little heart of mine. Maybe, I am sad
because if he -even in the slightest chance- does not come for the second sem I
will definitely miss those time when I tried my best to pass by him at least
once a day.
Went through a farther route to the restroom because i can see him from that one even when there is nearer one. Tried my best to leave the
class early when our classes is near so that I could see him coming out of his
class. Always checking the schedule to check and predict his where about and work
hard to go there. Leave the test room early as I could so that I can wait for
the bus together (even though my whole batch were there too (-_-). Entering an
empty class where he used to sit on a test just to know his date of birth
(yayyyy~^^ -I’ve never been so thankful to any test be4 heheh-). Peeking
outside the window almost all the time to check if he was out for lunch or
something (I stayed at my friend’s room that week). Getting some story from my
friend who was from the same class with him. Pretend to have some business with
that friend of mine when in fact I was trying to meet him. Actually I did try
to at least make friends with his best friend (at least I think so) but I think
I screwed up bcoz I’m not really good with guys heheh. This is nothing much but
I really wear shorts now so that I have something in common with him. The most
amazing was crying like a broken dam when I thought he moved. Seriously THAT
never happened before –me to cry over a boy who I never really talk to- was I
thought utterly impossible. I salute him for that (even he knows nothing
hahaha).
So hey, when I think back my heart have a lot of reasons for
not letting me to forget him. Even when I listen to this song ‘’21 guns’’ I
will recall him. Well, during a camp his group made a performance with this
song. You probably know who I set my eyes onto during the whole performances.
Feels like only me and him at the hall but I’m invincible (sobs). And act, what
I ever remember about that camp was me looking at him all the time. He didn’t
notice, still, I think so… ^^ Every single day there, everywhere I go, I can’t
stop this habit of searching for him. So… I think IF he isn’t there for the
second sem I will treasure him as a nice memoirs to remember. Go girl! I’ll
stop here for now…this is already too long (-_-)/ popye~
#i heard that there will be new class group for second sem.
If he come I wish we are on a different class.hm…