MyConfusedLittleWorld~

it was BLACK!with a little bit red in the middle...well act it was the color of the t-shirt he's wearing today.i thought he moved!and i cried for nothing!!! u know, the truth is act i'm shocked by myself that i cried when i heard that he had moved (when he actually didn't).i remember the first and the last time i cried for a boy was when my friend went to other school...THAT i think was a different situation because me and him had been together (friend) for at least three years but in this case...me and that person; we barely know each other and in fact we DON'T EVEN KNOW EACH OTHER.i think my relationship with him is limited to 'stalker and victim' and the funny thing is I AM the stalker.(kekeke) anyway, oh WAIT! just to make it clear even though i did confess that i'm a stalker BUT i'm NOT one of those scary perverted stalkers.again anyway...this is my first time riding a bus with him.and i was listening to 'FT Island-I hope' at that time...hehehe well, it's very hard to meet him.sheesh...we are from different classes.but luckily we were provided a schedule of all classes so.........i know where he will be heading for the next lecture (grin).heheh actually...it was kind of a conflict right now, in here -----> <3 i don't think i know what love is.and i can't tell whether this feeling is crush or perhaps only admire...or maybe it is love?aigoo... ~naneun sarangul ajig molla~ chogum do gidaryo~~ hahaha owh! i think i haven't tell you anything.this 'person' i'm talking about is a boy from my batch...i saw him first on our orientation day but at that time, i was interested in someone else.but then one night...it was before our exam, i saw him...sitting on a bench.and i realized something that was very unexpected!and i thought 'this guy is an interesting fella~!' and since then i've been watching over him...hehehe i prefer to call him Mr.Arrogant.well, it wasn't because he is arrogant (he mixed well with his friends) but his face just resembles arrogance.strictly speaking he is NOT arrogant.maybe he was this type of person, the one who only cares for people that he know...perhaps.so...about the conflict.you know, from the last post...i said that i like Key.and now in this post i said that i kinda have this feeling for Mr.A.and another thing u should know.the boy that i mentioned before, who moved to another school, i have the same feeling too...it's complicated...owh!let's call him Mr.Tintenfisch hahaha i have a good reason for calling him that! i don't know who i like better...~sarangun himdunkabwa~ but here's what i think for the moment. Key-he is my rissou no kareshi.but me and him is impossible.i've never meet him and he will probably have no interest towards an average girl like me...and Mr.A-he is a person that make me wait to see if i had the chance to see him that day.and make me turn back a lot of time to check if he was also there.sigh~ but i prefer him not to know me...i don't want us to be even friend.i'm afraid that i will want more than that.so~u and me...i guess only 'stalker and victim' hehehe and last! Mr.T-he is my friend and sort of my relative.my mom knows him and knew how we talk-fight every time we met (even on FB). well it wasn't a serious fight it was kinda like joking and playful. i enjoyed my time with him...but~ i think my friend likes him.and she's gone through a lot.i guess she deserves him better that i do.i was thinking like 'passing him to her'.he can take care of her just fine. dakara~this is not a matter of choosing...because none of these guys have the same feeling for me...in fact i don't know what the matter is =,='...i'm confused already...maybe i'll end up alone...with a cat...no, A LOT of cats....ahaha just kidding.i'll wait and see who is actually the one who is also waiting for me right now =) maybe...i just haven't met him yet. =3

#that heart clock is early by 1 hour and i don't know how to fix this...=.='