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So, after so many ages I'm back now! For real. And this time I won't talk about dreams about my crush, or complaint on anything. I've come to fix and repair all of those things that I've said before, in my previous previous posts.

Anyone who read my posts, the earliest, especially, will find out how many complaints I've made on my current alma mater, and not to forget how many times I've mentioned my crush, all those stories and dreams and hopes. Also, for all those Grammar Nazis out there, would probably suffer a severe mental breakdown reading my posts due to my perfectly imperfect grammar. In other words, my grammar sucks.

Now I'm going to fix them all.

First and foremost, for all those complaints. When I re-read my posts I've realized that how immature I was back then. There are things that I complained about which are relevant. But then sadistically, most of them are irrelevant, and written due to unstable emotional state, together with the feeling of rejecting everything due to my own fault of not being ready to let go of the past (which i brought into myself). Been here for quite a long time, and I realized that I surprisingly actually like this place, and the lecturers, my friends... And in fact, I was inspired by this man, a lecturer, by his words since the orientation day. A man of brilliant thoughts. And now that I understand why our learning environment in the PJ campus was full of dissatisfaction, all the reasons, it kinda makes me feel guilty. Because, it wasn't like they want us to be in that way, it's because they cannot change anything for us. And in fact, our new campus, (the one that I'm in now) have everything, all the facilities that I used to complained that they weren't there, back in the old campus. And the lecturers, despite all those lacking in facilities, they did their best to make sure that we understand what we learned. Idk about the lecturers of other classes but at least the lecturers of mine do. And friends, yeah i do have a several numbers of people that I really valued over here, (and there back in PJ campus). Those are among the people that I'll never forget due to whatever impact they've done on me. Tho there are people that I don't like, but hey there will always be people that you do not like, no matter where you are right? And finally, I need to learn how to channel all my complaints to the right medium.

And next, about this crush of mine. I seriously can't live without him. I'm dying right now. Okay, just kidding. I can't believe how overly attached I was to him. After a long, deep thoughts I've concluded that I can live without him. And I really want to let go. The feelings are like, "Come on now, I've hold the door for you to get outta here. But if you want to come back, I'll welcome you as a good, 'ol friend." I will survive without him. Time to say goodbye now, really, seriously. And next time I mention him, it would be either as a good joke or a good memory. And about his sanity I would really love to help, but this time as a fellow believer, not as someone who has a crush on him. And now finally, I officially announce him as an ex-crush, and somebody that I used to know. And, maybe someone that can later be my friend, tho the chance is like to the bottom of the sea, or maybe deeper to the core of the earth.

And finally, to the Grammar Nazis, I want to officially apologize too, for all those grammar mistakes I've done (and still doing). And I'll do my best to fix 'em, from now til on. But then, I won't change anything from my previous posts for they would remind me of who I was yesterday, so that I can fix them for tomorrow.

And thank you for reading. I'm out of here. Peace.

Out.